Hiii everyone,
Long time no see.
It’s been forever since I wrote here. And as usual, please excuse my“broken English” — I’m trying my best.
If you’ve been around for a while, you know I usually write at midnight. That’s kind of my thing. But maybe this year I’m turning over a new leaf and writing in the morning instead. Not from my cozy laptop in bed, but from my office computer. Look at me being productive. yeu.
So… why did I disappear for a whole year?
Honestly? 2025 came and went in the blink of an eye. I didn’t even get the chance to put it into words. I couldn’t capture it in a single digital post. And that stings a little. But hey, better late than never. I’ll unpack it slowly.
First things first...... I spent most of the year with someone I adore. Someone special. Let’s call it B.
Distance? Doesn’t faze me. As long as communication flows and we meet each other halfway, I’m all in. LDR? That’s right up my alley.
When I met B. We talked, walked, laughed, ate, and spilled everything. Literally everything. We shared our days and nights, all the little things in between. Day-to-day chaos, midnight thoughts, random worries. All of it. B means the world to me. We’re about to hit our third year together…I hope so rite???
I think when we’re genuinely living in the present...we sometimes forget to capture it. I used to beat myself up about that. I wanted to take more pictures, go home, write it all down in my diary like some coming-of-age movie. But every time I’m with B, time flies. It slips through my fingers. And I’m left wanting more.
and another anyway...
I moved to a different program this year. I used to teach younger kids — even though I didn’t really like kids at first, I actually enjoyed it. But now I teach middle school as a Social Studies teacher. Did I tell you that alreadyyyyyy?!
And for the love of God, it’s so fun. I’m finally free from math. Now I get to teach economics, geography, history, and social culture of course. My students are teenagers now. Real teens. With real feelings and real drama.
I can actually talk to them. Like, really talk. I’m even mutuals with some of them on my second account. We don’t just chat about school...we talk about home, friendships, crushes, heartbreak. Their little puppy-love sagas? Adorable. They pour their hearts up, and somehow they trust me. I’m really grateful to be their teacher.
On a completely different note: I’ve officially entered my furniture era.
I don’t know what happened, but I fell head over heels for decorating my tiny bedroom. I’ve been saving up just to buy shelves, lamps, random little pieces that spark joy. Is this what adulthood looks like? Because if it is, I’m leaning into it.
That’s pretty much it.
It was challenging. I had to find my footing in a new place, with new people. Heart-to-heart talks squeezed into limited time. Reading the same book but somehow not always being on the same page.
I lost my temper more times than I’d like to admit. I’m working on it. Baby steps, yeu.
Sometimes I wonder if I should bend a little to fit someone else — or fit the society. But I hope I can learn to tolerate more, with a sincere heart, without losing who I am.
Right now, the vibe is warm. I’m eating cherries — look at over there — and listening to “There Is a Light That Never Goes Out” by The Smiths. It started cozy… but somewhere along the way, it turned a little gloomy. Funny how that happens when you start digging into your thoughts.
Anyway.
That’s my little heart-to-heart for today.
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